life is too short to wake up with regrets...

side note: just watch running man latest episode. haha, damn funny. 2013 1st ep.

anyway, tomorrow's the last day of block tests and then we'll revert back to normal time-table.
ahhhhh, i have to survive a couple more days before the block test results are out.
what to do??
I'm so gonna have to retain, which is not all a bad thing since I have so many regrets.

I regret not studying hard enough.
I regret not making much friends.
I regret joining a shitty CCA.
I regret almost everything!!

I wanna have a chance to make up for this regrets, and no, not in JC2.
Even if i study my hardest, I can't keep with with JC2 demands.
Even if I start making friends now, I won't have as much fun.
Even if i change CCA now, nah, that's not possible.
I CAN'T CHANGE ANYTHING!

i don't want to live with regrets.
as i lay in bed these few days, i'm always thinking that
life is too short to wake up with regrets.
i'm 17 now, going on 18 this year.
I wanna look back to my schooling days when I'm 40 thinking of awesome stuff
I don't wanna look back and see myself mugging and not having fun/friends.
I know everybody's gonna be disappointed in me when I retain,
but I know that nobody's gonna be more disappointed than me, myself.
When i was young, I always thought my school life will be smooth-sailing,
6 years, PSLE, 4 years, O levels, 2 years, A levels, __ years, uni

BUT OPPSS, hold it right there....
6 years, PSLE, 4 years, O levels, 2 years, 3 years, A levels, __ years, uni

i learnt that sometimes in life, things don't go your way and well, you've have to accept it.
but hey, i think it's best to turn back around to build your ship first before going into the raging seas.
right now, my ship is wrecked and sinking.
i might be able to survive the seas by repairing it on sea but it's gonna be hard.
i'm gonna have to repair and sail at the same time.
i'm not up for it. i'm not that hardworking or brave enough.
also, i don't have team mates on board with my or determination and zest to do so.
if i turn back and repair my ship on land first, i'll find my team mates and new found determination and zest.
then, in 2014, i'll sail my new repaired beautiful ship out to sea to face the As.
HAHAHAHAHA, wow, I can really think of a good analogy huh?

so now, i'm slowly rowing back to shore in my broken ship.
i feel so lonely and demoralized.
but once i'm on shore, i'll come back with vengeance!!

so come on sara!
just keep rowing to shore first.
survive just a couple of days in JC2.
just right until the day the block test results come out.
which should be somewhere around next week.
so yeap just 7 days of JC2 lectures and lonely recesses but hey, everything's gonna work out fine.
everything always does. insyaallah.

ok, gonna bathe and work hard for math.
i did promise my mum that i'll try my best..
i'm gonna keep that promise :)
bye!

-SARA ^^